I think I failed Maths GA yesterday. Yes, really. Actually, I'm 80% sure I did. And I don't understand Maths at all! I miss RGPS teachers, they're really so easy to ask for help. Ahh, and Mrs Ang is that easily-distracted sort of person, and she keeps telling me to shush when I ask questions because she'd forget what she was going to say, and then I don;t understand what she says. AT ALL. Oh gosh, why didn't I listen in P4 to P6? And why am I so hopelessly dumb? Can I even call myself a GEPer, I wonder. Probably not. AAAAAAH. I know I sound like I'm being so emo, but I can't help it. How am I even going to get GPA 2 at this rate? I reeeeeaaaaalllly wish I listened, and if only I could turn back time... Okay, if I ever get another try in life I'll remember this lesson. :x

So anyway people, for those of you who know I'll be in Founder's Day, don't be too excited... I'm only a RESERVE emcee. That means if they both arrive, I shall be free of roles. WAHAHA. Well, I don't like the role of an emcee. :x I feel so substandard and incompetent, because seriously, my pronunciation is terrible and I keep toking like dis. And I fail at accents. Blehhh. The rest of the ELDS people get to be background dancers! SO INFURIATING. Why'd they have to choose me for reserve emcee? :x But I'll make the best of this. Because it's not everyday I get to have the slightest chance to appear on stage. WORKHARD. <3

That brings me to the point about school. I just don't think I'm even vaguely intelligent, honestly. I pretend I'm some person who understands what the teachers are talking about and all, but seriously I can't. The only subject I'll ever comprehend is English, and mine's not exactly wonderful either. I can't ever stress on how smart everyone in RGS is. I seriously can never see myself competing with these people: the awesomely artistic 110, the smart mathsy 113, etc. And to think that before, I didn't care about examinations at all. And I think it's a little too late to stop slacking, but it's now or never right? Plus I seriously don't think the teachers like me much, except for Miss Pang who's really nice to everyone. So not counted. :x And gah, why'd I even care? I guess I'm that sort of person, really. Deep down, I crave for attention. Yeah, I know that sounds really selfish but I really wish I'd be accepted, liked and not shunned anymore. In spite of my noisiness, hot temper, irrationality and sheer stupidity. Yeah, I've accepted myself and got past that suicidal phase. But sometimes my emotions can really get me down, times like now.

I have to go send the commonwealth essay to Ms. Chen now, so I guess that'll be it then. Until next time, or at least when something vaguely interesting happens.