I have three things to say, first off:

1)I am positive that I failed Chinese, and possibly English as well. They were the hardest papers I've ever done... Aah, let's not delve into that depressing subject.

2)Momo had a sprained leg and... she's not eating much. I'm sort of worried and spent half an hour trying to coax her yesterday, what should I do? :'<

3)Aaaaaaaah. SAs.

So about yesterday, me and Alicia and Xinyu and Yi Yin went back to RGPS! Yes, random group of people. It started with Xinyu going to ask me last week, and then I passed on the message to lots of people. Hehe. We got into Wan Qin's father's taxi(happened to be on the way) and we were VERY surprisingly not kicked out of RGPS. In case you were wondering why we would be kicked out, it's because the new principal doesn't really advocate ex-student visiting. She says it's only for special occasions. But then our seniors(as in sec 2s and even some sec 3s) came too, and we were sort of jamming up the place. Whee. So the seniors called Mrs Sng and the guard talked to her, but in the end SOMEHOW Mr Tan(as in hobbit) came down instead. So we all rushed to the canteen to eat. OH FRIED RICE, HOW I HAVE CRAVED FOR YOU THESE FEW MONTHS... Sorry, I just love RGPS fried rice! I mean, no offence but the east&west stall sells really salty fried rice.

Next, we just barged into classes and bugged teachers. And I can swear I was asked why we were here at least eight times. Aah, it felt to nice to have a glimpse of the place that's been by school for six whole years, and say hello the the teachers too. RGPS feels so homely, I WANT TO STAY THERE. :o Upon seeing us visit, the teachers all had very varied reactions, which I will attempt to describe now. :D

Mdm Loe: *stares at me* *gives me a joking-ish 'I'm already sick enough of you so why still visit' look*
Me: *grins maniacally and starts rambling*
Mdm Loe: *goes back into 'haiyo why is your maths so hopeless' mode*
Me: *starts laughing insanely*
Mdm Loe: *fake scoldings and evil maths teacher-ness*
Miss Poon: *pops out of staffroom and says 'don't be so evil lah'*
Me: *tries not to laugh again, face extremely red from this already*
Alicia: *gives sweets to both teachers*
Teachers: *smiles and give thanks*

*random shouting, screaming and chatting between the four of us and teachers*

洪老师: *walks past, glances at me with 'that' smile*
Me: *laughs again and asks if she still remembers my face, my name, my identity*
洪老师: *tries not to roll eyes*

Yes, that's a little bit of what happened. Dunno why, but I was very hyper. Like HYPERHYPERHYPER! Probably because I ran and started shouting 'Mdm LOE!' and then ran even more down. Heh, and Xinyu, Yi Yin and Alicia were all super-hyper too, inevitable actually. All that nostalgia and familiarity... Aww, poetic ain't I. :D

So later we saw Mrs Chin as well, and again I went running down and shouting. Apparently it wasn't usual for old girls to pop in after SLI, so she took a moment to register all of our faces (three seconds okay!) and she suddenly started smiling and recognising all of us and saying how I've grown. Jeez, I remember that the last time someone said that to me, it was my cousins when I was really young, like 2 or 3. (my cousins are all 25-26 years old now, no time to bother with people like me :'<) Aah, I miss Mrs Chin too. Fine, I WAS scared of her in P4 to 6, but after PSLE I found no reason to anymore, because I couldn't get reprimanded about Maths anymore. And anyway her teaching methods were the only ones I understood beside Mdm Loe's. Yes, this year it's totally self-study and self-understand.

At 12pm we went to 5Q for 张老师's chinese lesson. It sure felt good to sit on the floor for lessons again, something we used to detest doing back then. And hear 作文 explanations, and get worksheets marked in an everyday manner. And have stuff shown on the visualiser, like the textbook. AND read out the entire passage together with the teacher! The joys of being young. :D So apparently I met Dolly's friend there(remember the face but not the name! :x) and 张老师 said we were 'uninvited guests' in a joking manner, of course. By that time, Mikoo had joined us and we also wrote this alternative beginning for this passage about a Sentosa excursion(remember 二十元? We did that activity for that as well) And ours wasn't good enough so it had to be marked! GASP. We're Sec 1 already... Heh, but 张老师 said it was a commendable effort. YAY. It's going to be printed out along with the P5s' group activities and complied into a handout for them! Yay, we left a mark behind. :D

So after that we barged into more classes and MR TEO IS ALICIA'S SISTER'S MATHS TEACHER. GASP. He looked extremely tired, sigh. So all we did was briefly say hi and then leave. But it felt so good to be back, even if it meant being bugged by swarms of juniors (first choir juniors that tried dragging me to choir and left for yantong after that, hehe. And then P6 juniors who started hugging me and asking for my number. :P) who were actually quite sweet. Yes, I miss them and want them all to come to RGS. *evil grin* By force. Just kidding, hehe. After another scrumptious meal, we went home. Me and Yi Yin were going to visit 林老师 in Beacon Primary, but then she had already left. Poor YY had to take 171 back to RGPS and then home. My bad. :'<

Right, now it's time to get serious and on to revision. HISTORY+GEOG+MATHS= EEK. But I'll manage... somehow. I hope.

P.S: I'll miss House Prac(okay, not really the mass dance) and PSL Sessions.(SO FUN!) Aww, until MAY. Two whole months. :'<

P.P.S: I cannot ever get people and HOUSE. My brain capacity is too small to understand any of it, heh.

AAH. I HEREBY CONFIRM THAT I AM TOTALLY, ABSOLUTELY, TERRIBLY FREAKED OUT.

Because tomorrow is 听写 and SAs start on Wed. Plus there's a mock-SPA on Thurs. And oh, a GA too. I was sort of used to people pushing me around for so long: "Marcia, do your homework/hand in (this) or else I will(insert threat)!" And now it's just nothing. Blank. Like the teachers will just issue a booking or something, but they won't chase like they used to. Aah, and now I think my brain is reaching its limit and things refuse to be stuffed in further... I'm trying in vain to study the 40+ unknown phrases I discovered in the textbook so far. And I have totally no idea how to revise for Chinese, what should I do? And last but not least, I have absolutely NO IDEA what on earth a 'complex number' is. I feel like swearing. Aah, rats.

On to today's exciting (and not so exciting) events. Momo's really filthy, really. When we brought her to Pets Republic for grooming, the people there said she had pee on her face, in her ears (wonder how it got THERE) and everywhere basically, leaving us no choice but to give her a wet shower and a grooming session. Apparently it's 10.07 now, and they groomed her at 2pm, and they're still doing another intensive session! Oh wow, Momo, how'd you get SO dirty?

This afternoon, for my group, was Bio PT discussion at Jiamin's house. I arrived LATE. But then we were made to drink some undrinkable orange juice. I found it okay though, just a little sour. Qingyun managed to choke down 1/4 of it by the end, 3 hours later. Heh. Due to my lack of lunch, I gobbled down one Ferrero Rocher, 2 hotdog buns and lots of Marks & Spencer's chocolate biscuits. :D Yes, I KNOW I'm just trying to indirectly confess I'm a gorger. Whee. We fooled around pretty much actually, and then we searched Ly-Shan online and found Lychee Liqueur. No kidding. It seems like the trend to search your name online nowadays, and see what odd results you get. Hehe. After a lot of fidgeting, we discussed the shape of Zorg and kept on thinking of silly ideas like hearts with cracks where the consumers could fall in and die, and then the decomposers could eat them. And then Qingyun started talking about laughing gas and we laughed for five minutes straight. =.=" Apparently, Karen was there too and she sprayed imaginary laughing gas. And then we were pretending that the chocolate sticks (fingers) were Karen's fingers and that Cynthia(Karen's mom, courtesy of Mrs Ang also) would come beat us with an imaginary cane. Ahaha, I love imaginary friends. SO FUNNN.

So we basically did nothing until Qingyun nearly left, and we started discussing a lot after she did. So evil right? Ah, but I'll update you when I can okay, Qingyun?

Back to studying now. *insertrandomwarriorcry* I SHALL PASS SA! YAAAAAAARGH!

P.S: My mealworms are moulting. :3

Alright, big newsflash: I'm not reserve emcee anymore. o.o Basically, Miss Chen just told me that the teacher in charge thought I was too lousy and useless, so they kicked me out. Okay, I meant that was her underlying meaning but in actual fact she said it in a nice way, that's all. Aah, I think she expected me to get all depressed and such. But I'm fine with it. I mean, painting sets for ELDS can't be that bad. OKAYOKAY STOP TELLING ME I'M JUST FINDING A WAY TO CONSOLE MYSELF. :x

Anyway, MOVING ON. Today's ELDS practice was... :'<. Seriously. First we helped to lug this loooooong mirror up the stairs of Block J2, and a chipped off piece plonked on the floor. And then all the seniors were going on about 'seven years of bad luck', but there were seven of us so it's one year. AH. I DO NOT NEED MY ALREADY UNLUCKY YEAR TO BE JAM-PACKED WITH MORE MISFORTUNES. And then after that, we watched the seniors rehearse for SYF... I don't know if I should tell you the plot, but in case it's supposed to be confidential let's play safe. So everything sounds alright so far, right? No. We were asked to leave after twenty minutes or so, I think because we were too noisy/chatty/inconsiderate/not needed. :x And so we did.

Duration of practice: 1 hour. o.o

And so me and Julia went to the canteen and spent half an hour eating. WHEE.

Oh yeah, today was EL FA! Not that difficult, really. Manageable. For the follow-up assessment, I did this really emo story about not being able to smile. Aah, again I cannot disclose too much for the chance of letting out the questions to people who haven't done it yet. And anyway, geog was quite nice as usual. Miss Pang said something about how she learnt the right way to crawl from a Russian GEP teacher because she taught her how to spin in the right direction to balance her chakra. o.o Okay, my family has weirder theories like that, so I won't dispel the possibility that spinning can benefit you. Hehe, Miss Pang's a brain gym consultant who knows yoga. And she's SO nice too, she really reminds me of this buddhist nun at my temple. Yes, I know the comparison sounds weird. :x

Last but not least, I got my nametag yesterday. MY IDENTITY. This means no more being mistaken for a Sec 3/4 who forgot her nametag and that my angel will know who I am. Which can be a good or bad thing. Nevertheless, I'm still so happy about having that shiny red badge pinned on, FINALLY. By the end of Sec 4 I'll have worn a red nametag for 10 years! GASP. (since P1!)

So now I'll just leave you here, I have to go and interact with my mealworms. THEY ARE SLEEPY 'COS IT'S NIGHT TIME. o.o And also, the chinese SHAO NIAN WEN ZHAI is nice, go read it! YAY! So bye for now, and my stand on mealworms: cute. :3

Right, I have one thing to re-iterate: Don't expect me to be doing something great for Founder's Day. I'm a RESERVE EMCEE. :'< Aah, all the other ELDS juniors(excluding AWESOMELY LINGUISTIC Julia who is a emcee and Louise who's a VICTORIAN LADY *in awe*) get to be background dancers, i.e just dance and not memorise any long lines. Aah, I have to memorise a 8-page monstrosity of a script and I don't even know if I'll ever get to perform. And still, I really want to. I mean, on Saturday all the alumni will come and Miss Lui is an alumni, so she'd probably be coming. I want to, erm, be the emcee for that day at least. :x Dunno how to say it without making me sound like a romantic wimp. Gehh. At practice today, I practically did nothing but write down notes when Julia and the Sec 2 girl, Victoria, said their lines. So sorry for making you think I'd landed myself a big role or something, eh. Apparently we(me and Julia) were 'chosen' out of the blue, and I have terrible annunciation AND pronunciation so I'm a reserve. I know I always say negative things about myself, but that's 'cause I can't think of anything positive. Eck. I think I'm pretty different now actually, because in P5 I was really, really disturbed. For most people the growing stage comes when they hit 13, but to me 11 was that life-changing year, the year of trials and tests. And also the best year of my life, in regards to sorrows and joys. :D

Aah, I know I sounded a little philosophical there. Whoops. Anyway, I'm SUPER worried about my studies now: 28/50 for HCL mock exam and 5/10 for GA! The only things I know I (sort of) did well for were Bio Drawing and Geog FA. Arrh, I really do plan to study hard though. Today I sort of read through WS 2-14 three times, and I sort of understand Maths stuff now. I'm going to be emo now and start saying I really think I didn't grasp the chance earlier and listened in P4. Because I can only start getting depressed on my blog, really. I think I portray too much of a smiley image in school, but that's 'cause I get big moodswings. Except they're MUCH better hidden now, and I don't start hitting random people/crying in the middle of class like P4 to P6.

Am I growing up? It's sort of scary.

P.S: Our replacement Speech&Drama teacher, Miss Rosie, is SO NICE! And she's from the UK... Ooh. Plus Miss Tordoff is going to be in 'The Importance of Being Earnest'. I sort of read about it in Life! a few days ago. ZOMG.

I think I failed Maths GA yesterday. Yes, really. Actually, I'm 80% sure I did. And I don't understand Maths at all! I miss RGPS teachers, they're really so easy to ask for help. Ahh, and Mrs Ang is that easily-distracted sort of person, and she keeps telling me to shush when I ask questions because she'd forget what she was going to say, and then I don;t understand what she says. AT ALL. Oh gosh, why didn't I listen in P4 to P6? And why am I so hopelessly dumb? Can I even call myself a GEPer, I wonder. Probably not. AAAAAAH. I know I sound like I'm being so emo, but I can't help it. How am I even going to get GPA 2 at this rate? I reeeeeaaaaalllly wish I listened, and if only I could turn back time... Okay, if I ever get another try in life I'll remember this lesson. :x

So anyway people, for those of you who know I'll be in Founder's Day, don't be too excited... I'm only a RESERVE emcee. That means if they both arrive, I shall be free of roles. WAHAHA. Well, I don't like the role of an emcee. :x I feel so substandard and incompetent, because seriously, my pronunciation is terrible and I keep toking like dis. And I fail at accents. Blehhh. The rest of the ELDS people get to be background dancers! SO INFURIATING. Why'd they have to choose me for reserve emcee? :x But I'll make the best of this. Because it's not everyday I get to have the slightest chance to appear on stage. WORKHARD. <3

That brings me to the point about school. I just don't think I'm even vaguely intelligent, honestly. I pretend I'm some person who understands what the teachers are talking about and all, but seriously I can't. The only subject I'll ever comprehend is English, and mine's not exactly wonderful either. I can't ever stress on how smart everyone in RGS is. I seriously can never see myself competing with these people: the awesomely artistic 110, the smart mathsy 113, etc. And to think that before, I didn't care about examinations at all. And I think it's a little too late to stop slacking, but it's now or never right? Plus I seriously don't think the teachers like me much, except for Miss Pang who's really nice to everyone. So not counted. :x And gah, why'd I even care? I guess I'm that sort of person, really. Deep down, I crave for attention. Yeah, I know that sounds really selfish but I really wish I'd be accepted, liked and not shunned anymore. In spite of my noisiness, hot temper, irrationality and sheer stupidity. Yeah, I've accepted myself and got past that suicidal phase. But sometimes my emotions can really get me down, times like now.

I have to go send the commonwealth essay to Ms. Chen now, so I guess that'll be it then. Until next time, or at least when something vaguely interesting happens.

Yes, this is actually the last real activity I'm doing today- blogging. It's four minutes to one now, pretty early counting that I sleep at two usually. YAY. So today was debate session three, pretty fun especially because we got to do a real debate! I messed up big-time, but the seniors really did give insightful and constructive criticism. And I met someone who was my ex-RGPS fitness club senior, and she's now in Sec 3. Oh wow. I can't believe we still remember each other after three years, because my memory isn't exactly my best attribute. So anyway, after debate there was a heavy rain and I had no umbrella, which resulted in me staying in school with Tamisha, Sristi and this other girl I met yesterday(she's in ELDS too!) who has cute, poofy hair. Ehehe.

Anyway, this week so far's been nowhere near as manageable as I'd hoped it to be. Aside from insufficient sleep and panda eyes, I'm cramming for the Math test! Geez, if I fail or something my parents will get disappointed again. And they(teachers, not parents) are choosing student leaders in Term 2. The chances of me becoming a JPSL are practically NIL, but I'll still try. To try. I don't know why keeping my big mouth shut is such a terribly difficult thing, but maybe it's because I used to get my way in primary school, and the teachers were much nicer then... I miss the old teachers loads! Aah.

I'm having really mixed feelings about 110 now, because to me it's such an awesome class but I feel there are cliques that have formed strong since aeons ago. Well, I know I'm not the first to address this but these cliques have probably already been there since the dawn of time(i.e primary school), so it's really difficult to break the barrier and accept everyone, right? I just have one thing to say: If differences set us apart, we aren't a truly bonded class. If differences make us closer, then we have truly achieved our goal. Don't discriminate against others, and that goes for myself as well. Ehehe.

Last but not least, a changed blogskin. I just love the new one, what about you? I was planning to use a masquerade skin earlier, but it was too macabre and sorrowful so I guessed not. After all, I wouldn't like people to cry whenever they read my blog. Bedtime for me is now, right this moment, at once. So until next time, Sayonara! <3

Drama tomorrow, then Debate on Friday. I SWEAR I'm going to sleep the entire weekend, or at least twenty-four consecutive sleeping hours. Yaaaaawn.

Ahh, first ever double-post-in-one-day rubbish. Yes, I'm going to say rubbish instead of cr** from now on. In case, erm, Miss Chen reads my blog or something. I don't know however she could, but I'm just taking safety measures. Yes, my blog will be vulgarity-free and kiddy-oriented! Okay, not really but nevermind, don't mind me. Why do I double post, you ask? Just to tell you the extremely weird fact that I AM DOIGN COMMONWEALTH. Yes, way behind time. But I love writing ever so much, so it's more like I want to do it. My story's so far 400 words, and it's about a train ride. Ooh.

Yes, that's about it. Now let me go and rush out the story while you ponder at why I even bothered to blog about this cr- rubbish. :x

Oh yay, I have now successfully gotten rid of the terrible rash on my left elbow. And it was so terribly prominent just days before, hehe. So, erm... I must remember never to eat five prawns in one go EVER again. Not that I like prawns, anyway. Just cereal prawns... *drools*

By the way, today was House Practice 2, as all Sec 1 Rafflesians should know. Ah, it was so fun... But people weren't as 'enthu' at first, mainly because of lack of sleep and thus lack of concentration. But Richardson is so awesome, seriously! <3 And a letter from my lovely angel brightened up my day. I sort of rely on this angel-mortal thing to be something to look forward to even if there's a horrible assignment/test/etc. the next day. I just find it so comforting to find something addressed to you, and you feel like you're wanted, you know? Heh, even if I'm a really irresponsible replier(maybe once every 3 days, once I replied after 2 WEEKS), my angel and god-angel still don't dump me. Yay.

Back to that, we had high jump trials and sprinting trials. Of which both I failed terribly, you guessed it. I'm neither academically nor athletically inclined, sigh. And everyone here seems to be so good at everything... I can't even run to save my soul. I landed in the middle of the two cushioned parts and got squished, twice. All this while banging against the rubber band. o.o Our class had lots of really pro high jumpers though. And as for sprinting, I was twice as slow as the other two people in my lane and I felt really tired even if it was maybe just 50m. I seem to be getting worse at running everyday. Clocking 8:57 for 3 rounds at PE was a miracle, really. Hehe, it wasn't worth the amount of tiredness, giddy spells and muscle cramps I had to endure until the next morning. I'll definitely NEVER take part in a marathon, because I tire quickly and my body seems too heavy for my legs to lift. :/

And then after lots of cheering and Richardson love, we had PSL sessions! It was really nice to see all of the PSLs together again, and to be able to have fun and play games together... I still can't believe I'll be seeing Janne 4 times a week in future though. Really big coincidence. o.o I'm so surprised I'm good enough for Drama and Debate, my top two choices! And Japanese... :3 I know I'm gloating. MUST. BE. HUMBLE. Like Wilbur. Okay, nevermind, ehehe. But anyway, I still love Charlotte's Web and AWIT. Charlotte's Web being the best literature book I did, ever. ASOB is okay, but it's an anthology, and I prefer novels generally. I heard from my god-angel(who is in Sec 3) that we will be doing Merchant of Venice in future. Shakespeare! I don't really get why anyone would find his plays boring, they're so dramatic and simply good material for some drama series. Ooh, Shakespeare-based drama. Sounds great. ;]

And after PSL session, we had some discussion with classcomm members. About really fun activities we're going to do, they'll be revealed on Monday. I just can't wait for them to be carried out! I'm really glad I managed to 'fit in' in 110 and attain a sense of belonging(so cliche). Because when I first start in a new place, I'm usually trying to twist my personality, become more popular, stuff like that. But for RGS, I didn't really do that and I didn't really try to fit in, but I sort of feel I belong. Somehow. Makes you feel all warm inside, right? <3 And next week's International Friendship Week! Want hugs? :3 Hehe, spread the love okay. And don't forget to tell your friends how much you love them! I sound like one of those advertising PITs/PSLs right? o.o

Anyway, famous last words: GOODBYE, CRUEL WORLD! I mean bye for now. Yes, the whole post was basically me being random and talking about my own feelings. So egoistic, right? But that's the way a diary should be kept, and a blog is like a public diary. :] Anyway, until next time. I shall go reply to my lovely god-angel and angel's letters. Sayonara!

I love Oreo Chocolate shakes. From Sweet Talk, that nice bubble-tea store. *drooool*

Sigh, I know I only post when I feel like it so I bet nobody reads this blog anymore. Ehh, nevermind. Anyway, due to my current role as Environment I/C, I'm going to have to be a lot more organised. And tons more respectful, etc. etc. Basically go through an entire 'self-improvement' thing. Geez, I know how I always start talking and then everything I promise myself doesn't work, but maybe it will this time? I'm too fickle-minded, gaaah. But it's more of a MUST this time than a WANT, because even for CCAs, I have one Merit, one Core and Third Lang so I have to be more organised unless I want to totally flunk all my exams. So I shan't let this year go to waste! YOSH!

Okay, what you saw above was mostly me babbling to myself, sorry about that. DEBATE IS AWESOME<3 Whoops, sorry. Today we had the Debate General Meeting for all the 19 new additions(me and Yixuan from 110!), i.e Sec 1s. And we did lots of stuff like play games, eat cake and come up with a VMG(Vision, Mission, Goal) for Debate. Yawn, a little bit too cliche and boring(VMG) but it has to be done, no? And I just discovered that 3rd Lang falls on the same day as one of the Debate practices so I have to change the date. And also, since my parents are happily relaxing in Tokyo now, I have to teach Percia how to do Maths! I'm really very worried about her and her grades. I mean, she's in P4 already and she still doesn't work hard. She flunked her last Maths test with 9/36, the worst in the entire class. Maybe it's all my fault because I was a big slacker in P4 too, but I really don't want her to turn out like some delinquent, maybe even worse than I used to be. So I really have to make sure she does work hard. Eek.

And after all that big talk, I really have to go and plan stuff for Environment now. AND THE ORANGE-CUTTING BIO WORKSHEET! I hate oranges, ahaha. In five short words, I have to go now. Until I'm free/energetic enough to post again, that's it. I think it'll be a miracle if I don't collapse under all this, blegh. No, I'll manage. I WILL! (so determined huh)

Um, bye. <3