When can I stop being so melancholy or emotional, I do not know. It feels like it's the end or something but I know that's just pure over-imagination on my part. I can't stop thinking about PSLE results and imagining the worst too. Gosh, am I a gloomy idiot or what? My parents are still drilling it in that I'll get 275 but all I can think is: What if I don't?

I know, really surprising since I'm supposed to be those sort of slacker type who doesn't study and all that. But if I don't do well, I won't even get to go to Nanyang or RGS. AND my parents will start ranting about how they spent so much money on my education... I need to start studying for A levels, I know. I already did but only for English, haha. It's so difficult already... I bet Secondary One will bed a HUGE challenge for me, more so as I might go to Nanyang. I heard that the study environment there is very competitive and all that. Oh crap.

More about today then, and enough of my rambling on and on about personal insecurities. I don't want to relive my fears over and over again everytime I read this post in future, you know. Anyway, today was Miss Tan's farewell party, starting 10. 30. Before that, it was just a run-through of all the songs we were going to sing and of course, the GEP P6 party with SO MUCH JUNK FOOD. I know I'm fat so shut the heck up, stupid inner conscience. Hehe. I brought Lays chips and Coke! How cliche, because I think we had at least 6 bottles or Coke and 4 packets of LAYS and RUFFLES chips. Not that they aren't welcome, of course. I loved the brownies and muffins some random person made, of course. She has to teach me, though how I will learn I do not know. I'm not exactly... domestically inclined, if you get what I mean, ahem ahem. The party was fun, with the added gatecrashing of a few teachers. Okay, not a few but many. And boy was I thankful I'd brought my yearbook down. I think I must've collected more than thirty siggies today, YAY!

So naturally, I got everyone to sign it. Even Mrs. Chin, though somehow she isn't that scary anymore. It's a wonder what the realisation that there isn't much time left for anything does to you. I was practically jumping up and down maniacally. "SIGN MY YEARBOOK!" Hehe. Quote Aaheli: "That's your catch phrase". Riiiight. Though maybe I'm just a silly hypocrite. Anyway, I managed to get Miss Lim, Mdm Lim and Mrs. Chin before trying to 'force' Miss Tang to go and pass it to the other teachers. The yearbook, of course. She told me to follow her to the staffroom, and in the end it wasn't just me but a lot of other people too. Oh well, the more the merrier!

So when we were walking to the staffroom, we started mentioning about the possibilities of holding a Christmas party/countdown party or BOTH, and Miss Tang said she'd come too. Anyone interested? The whole GEP will probably be invited though, if i even solidise the plan. Hehe. And so when we got to the staffroom, we made a sort of aisle thing so that every GEP teacher who walks out will be captured, tortured and mangled by us unless they sign the yearbooks. Fun, eh? Okay, not literally but I think you're definitely smart enough to notice, haha. So we got hold of Hong Lao Shi, Miss Poon, Miss Lui, Mrs Sng and Mr Tan. The only person whom I didn't have a chance to let sign is the (not)wonderful Hobbit. Mr Tan, of course. Hong Lao Shi wrote that same phrase for everyone: 'xue hai wu ya, wei qin shi an'. I remember that all too clearly, that's the one I kept forgetting how to write in P4. After collecting all the signatures, it was time to go downstairs and that's what we did of course.

And so Miss Tan was welcomed with a big fanfare, cheers and screams. For once, she didn't mind noise. Ooh, scandalous! Scratch that part. Blegh. And so after that, we went up to the hall to go and do the singing and concert for her. I had to leave at eleven-thirty for choir, though. So no concert to watch except for that funny half-skit and the band performance. Oh, and we saw Miss Tan's sisters. They looked like those typical rich ladies, those high society ones that go to posh clubs. Ooh.

By the time I came back from choir, the entire thing was ending already so we just sand a last song for her before bidding her farewell. Then the teacher had to say something about saying goodbye to all the P6s. That was when I HAD to get all suddenly emotional and start crying for no rhyme or reason... Before hugging a lot of people and wetting their uniforms, whoops. Luckily Mikoo helped to hide me long enough to let me wipe my grimy face clean before Mdm Loe saw or something. I guess I won't EVER muster the courage to let her sign my yearbook, huh. After that, it was time to go back to class and go home. A lot of hugs and good-byes later, Hobee, Aaheli and I started looking for random people to hug. First we squished Miss Lim, then Miss Lui. I think I was a bit too aggressive, though. Whoops again. Then this Katrina person, a junior, had to come up and hug me and say she'd miss me. I started crying again in front of everyone. Eek. Including Miss Lui, who looked more than a bit surprised. And then we started walking down the stairs where Hobee commented, "You need chocolate". I started laughing a little and yes, I think I needeed it. Haha.

So that's the last day of proper school for everyone. Have a really nice time in RGS, majority of you. And if you aren't, good luck fitting in or just adapting to the new school. I'll never forget anyone. BECAUSE. I have a good memory when I want to. And don't kill me if I start squishing everyone next year and saying a lot of ahem-ish stuff. I can get really weird sometimes...